It all started with a seed. A seed so tiny and seemingly unattainable that it stayed clenched between my fingers for two years. Finally, at the rock bottom of relapse, shame, and self-pity, I allowed God to take it from me and plant it deep in my spirit. What did I have to lose? Then came a whisper: “you were made for this”
“Made for what exactly?”, I would call out to Him in the night in the pits of my darkness, “Made to talk about my deep self-hatred? Made to talk about all the ways that I’m out of control even though it seems like I have it all together? Made to talk about how I have not been delivered like I initially thought?” There was no reply, but the seed remained. The seed that I would someday create a ministry that I wish I had at the lowest of lows in my Christian walk. The seed that the issues and disqualifications in my life would someday become what qualified me.
Two more years, and the seed started to take root. It began to spread like wildfire, choking out the weeds that had kept anything else from growing in times past. What was the difference? This seed was being watered by the Lord. Yes, there was still struggle, but the struggles could no longer hold me captive. Liberty was mine, and it was all because of HIM: Yaweh, Abba, my perfect, loving God.
So here I am. I begin this journey of vulnerability with the roots of this seed unmoving in my heart. I’m no longer withered, but I’m watered in His perfect love. Fully bloomed I will be, and my deepest desire is that as you follow this journey, His love would begin to water you too. And so begins Fully Bloomed Ministries. A place of transparency for Christians struggling with deep identity issues.